I love my life. I know I can be whiny, grumpy, impatient, and ungrateful a lot of the time due to the stresses of everyday life, but I really do LOVE my life. I'm one of the lucky ones who has a life that she imagined from childhood. I just always wanted to be a wife and mother and to serve my Heavenly Father in the best way possible. Some days I feel like I'm a failure, but most days I feel like I do a pretty good job balancing everything.
A friend of mine is delivering a still born baby today. A student of mine had a heart transplant 4 years ago and is now in rejection. And I COMPLAIN? Sure, I've had trials, but you know that saying "If everyone threw their trials in a big pile, you'd want to pick your own back up"? Yeah, that's how I feel today. Thankful. Grateful. Loved. Blessed. Happy.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Kicking my trash
I just have to get it out and then I'll be fine. So, if you don't want to read my whining, you can click away from my blog right now and I will not be offended. Otherwise, prepare yourself. I have to document this, because my blog is my journal!
Emmeline is nearing 18 months old and she is seriously the reason for the title of this blog post. In one day she:
*launched herself out of her crib (she did a full on flip by the looks of how she landed!) at 6:00am - she wakes up at 5:45 on a regular basis (but today it was 5:15)
*played in the toilet several times because she can open almost any door in the house
*can reach the counter, so she pulled a whole stack of the kids' school work onto the ground and stomped on it as if to say, "Haha! Look what I did!"
*emptied every drawer/cupboard in the house that she could reach and didn't have a child lock on it
*unplugged the vacuum about 40 times while I was trying to vacuum one room
*chewed up several crayons when I put her in her high chair to color
*managed to find a pen somewhere and write on her clothes
*ruined a tube of lipstick, and got it on her clothes
*unloaded the silverware in the dishwasher faster than I could load it
*climbed up onto the TABLE several times and did a little dance
*escaped out the front door and was down the street before I knew it
*took a 45 minute nap (that's it..in a day if I am lucky!)
These are just the things I remember! Holy moly. I had SOOOOO forgotten what the toddler stage was like. With Noah and Mia I think it was easier in a lot of ways because they entertained each other. Not that they never had these same "curiosity issues", but I guess I have just forgotten how busy these little people are. It's a DARN good thing she is so cute. It keeps her alive! ;)
I think all of this is compounded by the fact that I wasn't working when my others were this little. That's the OTHER reason for the title of this post. During the summer our school had a lot of changes. We have a new head of school AND a new principal. This has meant a lot of changes for the school AND the teachers. During August and September I worked 12 hour days for JUST my job. I almost quit. Several times. It has eased up a bit, but I'm still not sure from day to day how long I will be here. I have worked WAY too hard raising my little family to just put them on the back burner now. (Besides the fact that it goes against everything in me...) So we will see how long I am here. I think I am finding a balance and managing it better every day.
Now for the POSITIVE part of this post. I have SO much to be thankful for.
#1 - I have the gospel of Jesus Christ. I could never survive without this! He is my friend, my brother and my Savior. I love teaching my Relief Society sisters about him and his teachings once every month. I love reading scriptures as a family. (It's getting fun now that everyone can read and discuss!)I love hearing my kids say prayers. I love having the Spirit in our home.
#2 - I have a fantastic, supportive, loving husband who is my #1 cheerleader in everything I do. I am so lucky I have him! He encourages me when I'm down and reminds me how great I am (even when I'm not!).
#3 - I have fabulous kids. They really are great. They are helpful and for the most part, they do what they are asked. They are smart, responsible and loving. I am so lucky they chose to come to our family!
#4 - A good friend of mine has helped me to see that I need to find JOY in every single day. As I've started to look for it, I'm finding that it's pretty easy. That means I have a good life.
Little things that make me smile and bring joy to my heart:
*seeing my kids smile when they see me waiting for them at the bus stop after school
*listening to Emme sing "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" (i'll try to catch it on video and post. SO darling.)
*reading to my kids at night
*watching Jaxon's football games every week
*watching Dallin in the PVMS marching band
*listening to Mia tell me who had their card changed in class today, what they did to deserve it, who was hurt on the playground, who didn't turn in their homework and every other little detail of her day. She's such a girl!
*watching Noah advance to a purple belt in karate
*listening to all four of the older kids practice piano every day even though sometimes it's a fight...
And so, my struggles and great rewards continue. I'm trying to do better at finding joy in the journey instead of just surviving every day. It's a work in progress, but I'm getting there. I love this crazy, chaotic life and wouldn't trade it for anything in the world!
Emmeline is nearing 18 months old and she is seriously the reason for the title of this blog post. In one day she:
*launched herself out of her crib (she did a full on flip by the looks of how she landed!) at 6:00am - she wakes up at 5:45 on a regular basis (but today it was 5:15)
*played in the toilet several times because she can open almost any door in the house
*can reach the counter, so she pulled a whole stack of the kids' school work onto the ground and stomped on it as if to say, "Haha! Look what I did!"
*emptied every drawer/cupboard in the house that she could reach and didn't have a child lock on it
*unplugged the vacuum about 40 times while I was trying to vacuum one room
*chewed up several crayons when I put her in her high chair to color
*managed to find a pen somewhere and write on her clothes
*ruined a tube of lipstick, and got it on her clothes
*unloaded the silverware in the dishwasher faster than I could load it
*climbed up onto the TABLE several times and did a little dance
*escaped out the front door and was down the street before I knew it
*took a 45 minute nap (that's it..in a day if I am lucky!)
These are just the things I remember! Holy moly. I had SOOOOO forgotten what the toddler stage was like. With Noah and Mia I think it was easier in a lot of ways because they entertained each other. Not that they never had these same "curiosity issues", but I guess I have just forgotten how busy these little people are. It's a DARN good thing she is so cute. It keeps her alive! ;)
I think all of this is compounded by the fact that I wasn't working when my others were this little. That's the OTHER reason for the title of this post. During the summer our school had a lot of changes. We have a new head of school AND a new principal. This has meant a lot of changes for the school AND the teachers. During August and September I worked 12 hour days for JUST my job. I almost quit. Several times. It has eased up a bit, but I'm still not sure from day to day how long I will be here. I have worked WAY too hard raising my little family to just put them on the back burner now. (Besides the fact that it goes against everything in me...) So we will see how long I am here. I think I am finding a balance and managing it better every day.
Now for the POSITIVE part of this post. I have SO much to be thankful for.
#1 - I have the gospel of Jesus Christ. I could never survive without this! He is my friend, my brother and my Savior. I love teaching my Relief Society sisters about him and his teachings once every month. I love reading scriptures as a family. (It's getting fun now that everyone can read and discuss!)I love hearing my kids say prayers. I love having the Spirit in our home.
#2 - I have a fantastic, supportive, loving husband who is my #1 cheerleader in everything I do. I am so lucky I have him! He encourages me when I'm down and reminds me how great I am (even when I'm not!).
#3 - I have fabulous kids. They really are great. They are helpful and for the most part, they do what they are asked. They are smart, responsible and loving. I am so lucky they chose to come to our family!
#4 - A good friend of mine has helped me to see that I need to find JOY in every single day. As I've started to look for it, I'm finding that it's pretty easy. That means I have a good life.
Little things that make me smile and bring joy to my heart:
*seeing my kids smile when they see me waiting for them at the bus stop after school
*listening to Emme sing "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" (i'll try to catch it on video and post. SO darling.)
*reading to my kids at night
*watching Jaxon's football games every week
*watching Dallin in the PVMS marching band
*listening to Mia tell me who had their card changed in class today, what they did to deserve it, who was hurt on the playground, who didn't turn in their homework and every other little detail of her day. She's such a girl!
*watching Noah advance to a purple belt in karate
*listening to all four of the older kids practice piano every day even though sometimes it's a fight...
And so, my struggles and great rewards continue. I'm trying to do better at finding joy in the journey instead of just surviving every day. It's a work in progress, but I'm getting there. I love this crazy, chaotic life and wouldn't trade it for anything in the world!
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
This boy
Now that I'm back from "life interrupted" (AKA August and September and half of October...) I thought I'd share this cute Jaxon boy's birthday interview. He turned 10 years old on August 18th, right after I stopped blogging for the quarter. ;) He is such a great kid. He's kind to others, and had a hard time completing this interview because he doesn't like to "brag" about himself. I remember holding him as a three week old infant in my arms when the news of 9/11 hit. He was such a comfort to me after such a tragic miscarriage at 20 weeks along and a devastating national horror. I love you, Jax.
Favorite Food: Tacos
Favorite Treat: Cinnamon Rolls
Favorite Activity: Football
Friends: Devin, Daniel, Taylor, Lorenzo, Solomon, Zachary, Andrew
Favorite Book: There's a Boy in the Girl's Bathroom!
Favorite Movie: Forever Strong
What I am good at: Football, Math and Language Arts
What I am not good at: being mean
If I could meet a famous person who would it be: Clay Matthews
When I grow up I want to be: Professional Football Player (NFL)
If you could change anything about yourself what would it be: nothing
What I like best about myself: I'm funny :)
My goals: To not get a homework note this year, to go on a mission, go to BYU, to be a pro football player, to be a dad, and make fun of the Utah Utes ;)
What would you be sad if you lost: my family and friends
If I had one wish what would it be: To go to the Superbowl
Favorite Food: Tacos
Favorite Treat: Cinnamon Rolls
Favorite Activity: Football
Friends: Devin, Daniel, Taylor, Lorenzo, Solomon, Zachary, Andrew
Favorite Book: There's a Boy in the Girl's Bathroom!
Favorite Movie: Forever Strong
What I am good at: Football, Math and Language Arts
What I am not good at: being mean
If I could meet a famous person who would it be: Clay Matthews
When I grow up I want to be: Professional Football Player (NFL)
If you could change anything about yourself what would it be: nothing
What I like best about myself: I'm funny :)
My goals: To not get a homework note this year, to go on a mission, go to BYU, to be a pro football player, to be a dad, and make fun of the Utah Utes ;)
What would you be sad if you lost: my family and friends
If I had one wish what would it be: To go to the Superbowl
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
May Madness
May was such a crazy month and with Grandma's funeral thrown into the mix, not much was posted, so here's a recap.
Noah performed in his first grade program (but all the pics were really crappy.)
We spent many nights at the Washington City baseball fields. Jaxon actually got to pitch one night and he was SO excited. I love watching this boy play! (Sorry, crummy quality on the pics, I know. I only have a point and shoot camera.)
Grandparents came to watch too!
Mia and Emmeline both had birthdays. I posted about Mia's birthday, but not Emme's. We had the family come for dinner and a party, but the birthday girl just couldn't stay awake. It was too cute!
Grandpa sure loves this little girl.
And so does her momma.
We tried to wake her up to open her presents, but it just wasn't happenin'.
It's my party and I'll sleep if I want to!
The kids had fun opening her gifts...
And Emme slept on.
Next came Mia's Kindergarten graduation. This was a hard day for me, but she looked so cute. My big girl!
Dallin had his final band concert of the year, but we (that means I) forgot the camera. :( (BLAST!)
And Dallin performed with Kirt and "Lieto!" for their end of year concert.
And of course, we musn't forget Dance Recital!
Whew. Well, there you have it. May in a nutshell.
Noah performed in his first grade program (but all the pics were really crappy.)
We spent many nights at the Washington City baseball fields. Jaxon actually got to pitch one night and he was SO excited. I love watching this boy play! (Sorry, crummy quality on the pics, I know. I only have a point and shoot camera.)
Grandparents came to watch too!
Mia and Emmeline both had birthdays. I posted about Mia's birthday, but not Emme's. We had the family come for dinner and a party, but the birthday girl just couldn't stay awake. It was too cute!
Grandpa sure loves this little girl.
And so does her momma.
We tried to wake her up to open her presents, but it just wasn't happenin'.
It's my party and I'll sleep if I want to!
The kids had fun opening her gifts...
And Emme slept on.
Next came Mia's Kindergarten graduation. This was a hard day for me, but she looked so cute. My big girl!
Dallin had his final band concert of the year, but we (that means I) forgot the camera. :( (BLAST!)
And Dallin performed with Kirt and "Lieto!" for their end of year concert.
And of course, we musn't forget Dance Recital!
Whew. Well, there you have it. May in a nutshell.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Looking backward...
Crumbum. There are a very few things I'm good at, and a LOT of things in my life that need improvement. I found my old journal yesterday. The one that Kirt and I received as a wedding gift. I wrote in basically every time I had a baby. (Yes, I have like 23 pages for 15 years of marriage.) That is, until I started this blog. The good thing? I blog more than I wrote in that journal. The bad thing? I REALLY need to do better. Significantly better. And my next goal is to have books made of each year of blog posts. (Can anyone recommend a website for this??)
Anyway, back in APRIL,(EESH)I guess I didn't post pics of Easter Sunday. The kids looked so cute. I love the boys' ties. :)
Anyway, back in APRIL,(EESH)I guess I didn't post pics of Easter Sunday. The kids looked so cute. I love the boys' ties. :)
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